
Seasons
This change was not going to hurt.
Or at least, that’s what I told myself. And I didn’t tell myself that without reason. I mean, I had good reasons to think so.
One of them? Well, this change had occupied share of my mind since the end of May, when I made known my intention to resign.
Okay, the cat is out of the bag. Yes, I resigned from my job at the end of last month, August 31st. And I was delirious enough to think it would be easy to close the chapter on that part of my life, with gratitude that I was gifted the moments I had and an open mind towards my tomorrows, and all they had to offer.
But it’s not that simple.
I truly believe in seasons, and the truth that the changing colors of our lives will require us to become someone else, this someone already dormant in us that we have to give expression to.
But I forgot that change is hard, and you can never prepare enough for the feeling of jumping over a cliff into an unknown that exhilarates and scares you at the same time. I forgot that human interactions leave imprints, especially hard to let go off when they are imprints that take us on a journey and leave us better than we were, like my work with my boss did for me. I did not think that my attempt to hold myself accountable for the life I build would come with questions, and some of them, I would not be able to answer.
But it’s done.
I am thankful for uncertainties, for the moments that jolt me deep down in my heart and fill me with questions.
I am thankful for the journey, because it keeps changing me, it keeps refining me and it keeps expanding my vision and definition of possibilities.
It is my belief that every moment of our lives, even the most mundane, is telling us something. And the universe is always sending us messages, if we choose to see them and interpret. For example; I was supposed to publish this post on Saturday, 1st of September, heralding a new month and all that stuff. But I did not. Or perhaps it is more appropriate to say I could not. I suddenly had cold feet, and had to inhale the whiff of my questions.
But that’s not my focus. My focus is that since then, I have felt like eyes were boring into me and words were being spoken into my ears to just “do it”. Every post I read, every image I saw, even the blog post I stumbled on yesterday; it seemed there was some content there meant for me, all saying the same thing.
When I told my friend I felt judged by the universe, he said, “It won’t stop until you do it.” I think I spotted these patterns, because I am often deliberately trying to find them.
So here it is; the first of many. In my clearer moments, I remind myself that the point is not to have a full-fledged blueprint at any one time, but to be open to new knowledge and experiences that will foster growth.
A season is done. And while I am so thankful for it, another watch begins. (GoT had to feature, sorry.)
I am so ready for this! (That’s at least half a lie, but we’ll take it as truth). Lol!
Starlight,
Tawakalit.

26 Comments
Adebola Aduwo
I can relate to this in more ways than one. And I’m sure this applies to so many other people.
Change can be scary, you know? I think the trick is to embrace our seasons and make the best of whatever situations we find ourselves in.
I love love love this post! Don’t ever stop writing. ❤
Jade
I certainly know that this change is. And yes to embracing all our seasons and making gold from them.
Thank you so much, Debola. Your comment was the first on this website; I’ll remember that. ❤
Shakira
Reading this with some semovita and Ewedu and you made me smile ?. Keep writing,you do it beautifully. Doesn’t matter if it’s on the first or 4th,the point is that you started, didn’t let that cold feet last for more than a few days. Barakallahu fihi. Inspired.
P. S: I love the flowers ?
Jade
Shakiraaaa, thank you so much, darling!
I am glad it made you smile, even though I’m pretty sure the semo had something to do with that. ?.
Flower mama; of course you saw your babies. ?
Lilian Okibe
I’m so glad you decided to follow your heart. You’re such a poet, lovely write-up. Congratulations again.?
Jade
Remind me to add poet to my list of competencies. Haha!
Thank you so much, Lilian! ?.
Shakira
Congratulations ???. Here’s to great days ahead. You may be scared but they’ll be beautiful days
Jade
Ameen ameen! Thank you, my love! ?
MK
I enjoyed reading this! ?
Jade
Thank you, Yems! ?.
Lara
To infinity and beyond, baby girl!
Jade
And then beyond. Thank you, hon! ?.
Bibie
This is so beautiful and relateable! I love love love! ❤️
Please keep writing!
Jade
Thank you so much, Bibie. I will! ?.
Deborah
Wow… Congrats dear.. A new season. Greater achievements Darling.. Cheers
Jade
Thank you very much, Deborah! ?.
Chidera
My heart warmed into a smile. There was the change I didn’t know about, there’s the resolve to grow always, and then, there’s words: beautifully interwoven, and each line I read, I smile, and breathe, think and smile again. You were born for this. Cheers to first, a beautiful beginning. I wish you all the success in this path that was clearly made for you.
Jade
My darling V,
You always know just the words to say.
Thank you so much, darling. Cheers! ?.
Ndi
I am so proud of you sweetheart
Keep it up
Jade
Thank you, boo. ?.
Olalekan Leewas
Wow! Such a beautiful read. Don’t stop writing (of course, you can’t stop being you). I hope to come back for more, soon.
Jade
Haha. I will not!
Thank you so much. ?.
T
Wonderful, Omolara! I’m glad you heeded the call finally.
I wrote this musings a while ago. Perhaps, it helps.
The Essence of ‘Meetings’
That our paths may cross for the good and the bad; but mostly for the good we may experience in the process.
That we may have memories to share and relish.
That we may appreciate the intensity and extent of the love others have given to us, and the irretrievable time we’ve had together.
And that we understand how we had gotten an invaluable glimpse to witness the other in their various, changing shades of personas.
All within the time being.
The time being not forever!
You’re not alone, L.
Winks.
Jade
This is a beautiful beautiful BEAUTIFUL message, T.
I feel like ‘beautiful’does not capture the essence of your words enough.
Thank you, T. Thank you so much. ?.
Karimot
Wishing you all the best . Your sister from Instagram. Lol
Jade
Oh, thank you so much!